yea...

wow my life is really confusing right now...im not sure how im going to like it but ill try it for a little bit at least, otherwise whatever you know what can you do?  heres a new one:

"Angel of My Nightmares"

Behind these eyes closed

This living shadow holds tight

Taken prisoner in my own mind

In the frigid darkness I lie tormented

By my own thoughts

By my own fears and heartaches

My mind creates this undying false reality

With my eyes strapped open in the dark

I must sit and watch me destroy myself

With no restraints, my mind runs wild

Wild and dark

And then you appear..

I hate this already

What role will you play tonight?

Angel or demon?

My mind chooses the latter and its

Too much for my sanity to bear

I slip

I crumble at the hands of this evil

But then I awake

And the sight of you in my arms

Builds me back up again

Picks up the pieces and

Makes me whole

This empty schism left by the darkness

Is illuminated and filled by your glow.

The demon of my nightmares

But inevitably, the angel and savior of my dreams.

             ---Jaymz Zokoe

hello again

"It seemed so long since we last met

how has it gone?

dont accept the blame

i would not complain

cause im sure it wasnt your own fault

that you never made it out your vault

just lock the door and find some time to scream

just say when

and youll stop the pain of your life

bring it(pain) to an end

just say when

and you could make amends

just say hello

say hello, again...

well whats happenin everyone it's been about a semester since ive done anything.....well this weekend was pretty shitty for obvious weekends but im getting over it i guess...i dont know how healed ill be but ill try to cover it up i guess.  why does everyone think they can walk all over me???  i mean honestly, just cuz im a nice guy people think they can run me, but that aint happenin anymore...whatever queer lol....anyways it's my niece's baptism this sunday and JAYMZ IS THE FREAKIN GODFATHER!!!  how sweet is that?  ill have to start puttin cotton balls in my cheeks and talkin like marlon brando :) lol yea prolly not cuz im that gangsta....have fun everyone, enjoy what u do.

       - Jaymz mother f-ing Zokoe (thanks chels :) )

yet another poem :) i have a lot of inspiration right now :)

I wrote this a little while ago and thought id share it with everyone.  I think it's pretty good but what do i know :) lol hope people like it

"Fool's Gold"

Its price and value of no comparison
To the thoughts and dreams of possibility.
Perfection a perceived reality only in the mind?
Or in your face, smiling from across the table.
The future unfolds slower and slower.
A beautiful existence inconceivably restless in my thoughts
Becoming less suppressive and sluggish with
Each breath
Each word
Each glance.
A pandemonium of wishes and dreams wrought by you
Your eyes, your hair, your glow
I want you as my own.
Pain and anguish an aching reminder of what is
Unfit for any soul to bear.
So smile, smile and fuel this fire that
Under the surface boils with love so deep and real
Engulfing me more and more completely
With every agonizing moment.